All I Want Is an Open Heart; My Final Open Focus Experience

December 27, 2010

It’s time for me to make some resolutions and to examine what I’ve done this year. Over the past 12 months I launched my website, recorded seven Feldenkrais® Awareness Through Movement® lessons to sell in my on-line store and began writing my blog.

It’s been an interesting process; in the beginning it was exciting and fun to share my thoughts and ideas each week in my blog. It was exciting to watch my on-line presence grow as my website began to climb in the Google ratings. However as I developed a significant “presence” on the net it began to feel tedious and require increasingly more of my time and attention. I couldn’t keep up the pace.

A few weeks ago it all came to a screeching halt when I realized that there is more to life than sitting in front of a computer addressing an invisible audience traceable only through Google analytics. I wanted more substance; I wanted to connect with real people. I reasoned that if I had to spend an inordinate amount of time tweeting to an audience that may or may not be aware of my existence and if I had to measure my success by the number of followers I have on Twitter and Facebook something was very wrong with my view of the world.

Les Fehmi, the author of The Open Focus Brain suggests that our culture has taught us to narrow our focus of attention making it more and more difficult to attend to things in a meaningful way. Additionally, the narrow focus causes us to become anxious, so that we have difficulty retaining information. This is exactly what had happened to me; by focusing so much of my attention on a computer screen and making what happened there a significant part of my daily routine my life seemed to shrink and I was certainly becoming irritable and anxious.

It has been said that the longest journey in the world is from the head to the heart. As I continued to reassess my activities over the past year I began to realize that I spent a lot of time living life in my head and it wasn’t working for me. I came to the conclusion that all I actually "wanted for Christmas” was an open heart; I felt that if I could develop the ability to connect with my heart I’d be able to extend that out to the world at large.

What to do? I had done several Open Focus experiments already so I thought I might as well try the Open Focus Heart experience from Les Fehmi’s book The Open Focus Brain. I wasn’t really expecting to feel any immediate changes or tangible results however, miracles do happen. Twice this past week I had experiences where I could feel my heart opening as I connected with the feelings of others. It wasn’t a huge shift but it was significant none the less.

I am now back “on-line” with a different focus and changed attitudes.I now realize that there are people reading my blog and my tweets that may also be looking for meaningful connection; I’m opening my heart to the possibilities.

Happy New Year to all of my readers and I hope that in the coming year you’re able to fulfill your most cherished dreams. 

If you have any questions or comments visit me, as feldylady on Twitter or on my Facebook page under Sandra Bradshaw, Guild Certified Feldenkrais® Practitioner. 

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